Living From the Heart

A Beautiful New Year!

2010-12-31T11:34:00.001-06:00

2010 has been and exciting year, to say the least. I have made so many discoveries on a spiritual level - and can only imagine that 2011 will bring even more.
I know I disappeared the last part of this year. I continued taking Almine's on-line classes and needed time to digest and practice everything she presented. It was worth every minute, every late night ceremony, every tear and smile.
Letting go of illusions / opposites isn't always easy. In certain cases, I found myself very depressed. I never realized how conditioned and caught-up I was in social conditioning, religious dogma, and dependency on others for my sense of well-being. For instance, relationships really don't exist because I am truly All there is. Any relationship would be with myself. That was weird. And the idea that love (which has the opposite of hate, so it is an illusion) really isn't as wonderful as we have been conditioned to think. Even in the best of love relationships there are expectations, covert or overt control issues, and sacrificing some aspect of who we are. I tried to argue with those ideas at first, but had to eventually agree. As much as I consider myself somewhat enlightened, I could identify definite expectations in my own marriage and friendships.
I really had to ponder the idea love and hate are opposites, which are sub-creations of man...illusions that must be balanced and released. For so many years I closed my e-mails and letters with "Light and Love". I struggled with feeling I shouldn't use that any more.  Why do I fight so hard, emotionally, to hold on to something that isn't even real? Well, another thing I learned is there are NO mistakes. We are exactly where we are meant to be at all times. Our understanding comes exactly when it should, in the manner that is perfect for us.
Once I figured out that I didn't have to resist everything, then I went into a silent peace. I felt totally disconnected from the world around me. I didn't take many phone calls, and only returned the most important calls. I didn't want to socialize with anyone - not even my husband. I didn't want to eat, and didn't want to sleep - which was odd. I really just wanted to sit in silence...in stillness...with no thoughts, no movement, no desires. That disconnection can be perceived as depression by the people around you. I stayed "disconnected" for weeks, wondering if I would ever re-connect. I felt like I was just going through the motions of daily life. I stopped doing ceremonies and other spiritual practices I had come to cherish.
Re-connecting was a gradual process. The holidays got me back in touch with some emotions. Even that was an interesting process. So many of our holidays practices are based on tradition...things carried over from the past. That puts me back in linear time...so what should I do? Stop all traditions? That would be sad for the whole family. My daughter has her own family now, and she is carrying on the family traditions - and I am part of that process. I has been so beautiful watching her mature and take on family values and traditions...or has it? Have I conditioned her to be stuck in illusions?
So you see, I am still unravelling the knots of illusion. ...even the questions keep me in linear time...
Like I said in the beginning of this post, I expect 2011 to be full of discovery and peace.
Blessings for the New Year!
Bonnie

Awareness of Illusions

2010-06-20T11:13:00.002-05:00

It's such a peaceful Sunday morning. The rain has stopped, and the birds are so busy. I sat and watched 2 small sparrows going from one level to the next a tomato cage - drinking the water droplets hanging from the wire. Such simply joy.
I have begun to notice the many ways we are bombarded by illusion every day. The words to songs, advertising, and television. It appears that we willingly trap ourselves in the illusion of relationship, lack, and especially the illusion of time and space. Illusion has served it purpose. Now it is time to release those "belief systems" that keep us on the hamster wheel.
The more I practice Blevaspata, Q!i Vesta, and Irash Satva and Shrihat Satva Yogas, the more aware I become of who I am and what my purpose is. There is such a peace that comes with this transition. It's as if someone turned on the light switch of LIFE.

A Week of Healing

2010-06-16T13:29:00.001-05:00

Over the past week I have had the opportunity to practice a healing technique every evening. This has been a special time of detoxifying, clearing away so many out-dated memories and beliefs, and balancing. It all began with a Qi Vesta card reading where my intention was physical healing. In case anyone wonders how effective and beneficial the Qi Vesta is, let me tell you...I immediately began detoxifying. Sometimes that isn't a pleasant experience. I didn't even realize what was going on at first. I won't go into all the symptoms, but sufice it to say that I ran out and got some Mylanta. Once I understood what was happening, I was able to deal with it more constructively.
The next evening I did a Belvaspata healing session. I am able to use the master sigils now, so I went through all of them. I also did distance healings for 3 other people. The next night I did the Shrivhat Satva Yoga. This is a yoga that deals with the dream cycles and clearing the debris from past reincarnations. It is performed with sound elixirs, and is incredible! I felt so much peace, and so alive, afterward. The next evening I did another Belvaspata healing on myself, and this time I included Level I of the Kaanish Belvaspata. Kaanish Belvaspata brings enlightenment. I continued to detoxify. but in a more controlled and understood manner.
The next evening I did the Belvaspata healing with Level II Kaanish Belvaspata. My system bagan to settle down by then. The intense detoxification was over. Each night I felt more and more peace. I decided to do the Shrihat Stava Yoga one more time.on the following evening. It is such an awesome feeling when the session comes to an end. The last portion of the session is spent cleansing the pranic tube. At the end you are visualizing a large blue ball of light above your head...you forcefully exhale a deep breath, and visualize this large blue ball of light exploding and surrounding your whole body. The peaceful meditation that follows is beautiful.
I finished off the week by sharing the Shrihat Satva Yoga with a close friend. She is so excited about it. Guess it was everything I told her it would be.

2010-06-10T14:06:00.003-05:00

It's June 10th already! Summer is well underway in Minnesota. I have truly lost track of time.
Over the last few months I have had the opportunity to take some classes that have changed my life in so many ways. I have been studying the teachings of Almine (http://www.spiritualjourneys.com/) for approximately 6 or 7 years. I had asked the Divine to lead me to spiritual information (or a teacher) that would allow me to grow and become a better teacher/healer. That's when I found Almine's teachings. I started reading her books, and even had the priviledge of speaking with her on the phone.
Yes, her teachings can be challenging to personal belief systems! Yes, there were times I closed the book and set it on the shelf...but I always went back because I knew in my heart that the information was correct, current, and from the Infinite. A person must be open and not want to criticize or judge.

Wednesday, October 28th

2009-10-28T12:58:00.000-05:00

There is beauty all around me and within me! That is my affirmation today.
It's chilly and misty outside...a great day to be indoors and get something accomplished. I have a sense of excitement because tonight I am going to do a group distance healing session using Belvaspata. I know this healing modality is so incredible that I want everyone to experience it. My Belvaspata partner in San Francisco and I are going to use what I call the "time release" form of distance healing. The practitioner can do the session at a certain time, and then program the healing to go to the recipient at another time. I have no doubts it will do exactly what it is suppose to.
I have had so many opportunities to share Belvaspata with people the last couple weeks. I have also invited more people to the up-coming drum circle. I know these gatherings will grow in numbers and open the door for new friendships, miracle healings, and much more.The time is so right for spiritual growth and sharing. I have to come up with a creative snack for the drum circle. Hmmm.
I have a close friend who is preparing for the Level I and II Belvaspata initiations. I encouraged her to speed it up, so now we have a plan. We are both going to take next Tuesday off from work so we can go through internalizing the Twelve Pairs of Emotions and Sixteen Rays of Light together. Once she completes that, the rest is written work. I am looking forward to having someone share these healings with. I want to receive as much as I want to give because I know it will change my life.
Blessings to All,
Bonnie

October 25, 2009

2009-10-26T01:42:00.001-05:00

Each day brings new adventures and experiences! The past few weeks have been exciting. We had our first drum circle. These gatherings are called Drum*Share*Heal*Love. We had a great time drumming, sharing and healing. We made some new friends and had some great snacks. I want to thank every one for coming and making it a special event. There was great enthusiasm to set the date for our next gathering, so we did. The next Drum*Share*Heal*Love will be on November 8th at 1:00 pm. For more information go to my website at http://www.feelingoodtoday.org/.
As a healer and energy worker I experienced many years where the people who sought me out were very needy. Sometimes this neediness wasn't even on a conscious level. Almine (http://www.spiritualjourneys.com/) teaches that those day are over...healers and lightworkers are now attracting like-minded people. I am seeinig this first-hand. The people who came to the drum circle were there to give and share. Everyone receives what they need in that kind of environment. I have also been contacted by a psychic and energy worker. The I attended the psychic's workshop, and she is coming to the next drum circle. That is just the tip of the ice berg. There is so much going on now. It is an interesting time to be on this planet.
Remember to see the beauty in all things. Also, never forget how significant your every thought, word, and action is. You are creating your tomorrow by what you do today. Create with love. You will be blessed.
Light and Love,
Bonnie

So much to do...

2009-10-04T20:03:00.001-05:00

Time just keeps flying by! It seems like there is always so much to do. Now that the season is changing to colder weather, time for storm windows, raking leaves, planting bulbs, etc. Then there are the wonderful times in front of a blazing fire with people I love...and my 3 cats. There is the joy in raking piles of leaves...and seeing the wind blow them around. The joy of clearing the garden with a new vision of what will be planted the next year. Even the smells of autumn make me smile.
I have been on quite the journey lately. I met with a wonderful shaman woman in St. Paul, MN, and had an incredible 5 hour soul retrieval. I learned many things about my energy body, chakras, past lives, and even recieved an new power animal.
Shortly after the soul retrieval, I completed my Level I and II Belvaspata initiations. I couldn't wait to do my first session on myself. It really was an intense experience. I recommend this type of healing to everyone. It is a technique that replaces Reiki and all other forms of energy healing. It works with frequency and light rather than matter and energy. Rather than focusing on disease, it focuses on wholeness and perfection. Be sure to drink lots of water after a session, becuase your body will begin to release toxins. It's easy to get a headache and body aches if you don't drink lots of water.
A couple of my friends and I are hosting the first Drum, Share, Heal, Love Circle on October 18th. We are hoping for a great turn-out of people who love to drum, share their healing and nurturing gifts, and simply have a great time encouraging each other.
So, never a dull moment.
Blessings to all,
Bonnie

Initiations

2009-09-17T11:59:00.001-05:00

I was finally able to complete my Level I & II initiations into Belvaspata. Part of the preparation for initiation was to translate the initiation statements into the Mother's language using the Mother's alphabet. It was amazing to learn such a beautiful language. The actual initiations involved calling in specific angels and using their sigils. Sigils are also placed on specific parts of the body for specific purposes.
I feel that I was thoroughly prepared for the intiation experience, but was amazed each step of the way. I took my time calling in each angel and focussing on each one's uniqueness. There was so much to take in...I ended up telling each one I would be back to learn more. I performed the intiations laying on a masssage table. When I was finished, I must have gotten up too quickly. I couldn't get may balance and was tingly throughout my body. I decided to just lay back down and enjoy whatever was going on. I know specific tasks were being completed in my energy body and physical body.
Now I am preparing to actually use Belvaspata. I know it is powerful. My first subject will be myself. I hope to have time for a personal treatment tonight.
In Praise, Love, & Gratitude.

The Journey

2009-09-10T12:00:00.001-05:00

Time just seems to be slipping away. It is a major transition going from linear time to simply being in the moment. I have been working on translating the Belvaspata initiations into the Mother's language for over a week now. There are 11 sigils and statements, and I still have 3 to go. I know my husband doesn't understand why I am putting all this time and effort into something he doesn't understand. Maybe he will in time.
Before doing the Level I initiation I had to work with 12 pairs of emotions. The pairs are based on balance...such as if you desire to achieve (workaholic), this must be balanced with play time. The idea is to take a whole day and go into an expanded consciousness (expanding to the size of the cosmos and more) and experience each emotion in-depth. This really is an incredible experience. This exercise is done with the ascension attitudes of love, praise, and gratitude. It is amazing how different life is when you embrace the simple beauty of not only the world around you, but also yourself.
After completing the exercise of integrating the 12 paris of emotions, I began to see how easy it is to slip back into the old conditioned lifestyle. I found myself watching myself acting and reacting in the old way...then could turn it around and return to what is called stillness of the mind. I am seeing how our minds are conditioned, from the time we are small, to expect and react in specific ways to specific situations. The sad thing is, we come to accept this as "right" and "normal", when in fact it isn't. This conditioning is based on being separate and alone in this journey. The time is here to embrace our ONENESS with the Infinite and with ALL of creation. That alone makes all things new...all things become loving and nurturing. I'll end with that life-changing thought.
In LOVE, PRAISE, and GRATITUDE.

September 3rd Thoughts

2009-09-03T15:24:00.005-05:00

I have decided to make this a multi-faceted blog where I share what I am learning, in hopes that others will share some of your knowledge (or questions) with me.
The most interesting thing I have going on right now is my journey into Belvaspata, a relatively new healing technique/area of study presented by Almine at http://www.spiritualjourneys.com/. It is proving to be the most intense practice I have experienced in the area of healing and ascension.
I have been following Almine's teachings for many years, but only this year decided to practice Belvaspata. There are four stages of initiation which can be done independently under the supervision of a grand master. At first, this didn't appear to be anything that would change my life in a big way, but once I began the preparation for the first initiation I found out otherwise.
I will share as I go, but will also (over my next few posts) bring this journal up to date on what I have experienced so far.
There is also some interest in my community in starting a montly drumming circle. I think it would be wonderful to incorporate sound healing, other forms of healing, and simply sharing our gifts with each other. We are pondering a date for our first gathering. There haven't been many spiritual/healing activities around Owatonna (to my knowledge), so hopefully this will be successful.

Greetings and Welcome

2009-08-12T10:48:00.000-05:00

This is my first post on my new blog...a new beginning! Everything is changing and shifting so quickly...the beliefs I held yesterday don't fit today; the friends I had yesterday are falling by the wayside; the foods I ate yesterday don't appeal to me any more...my body even feels different this morning. I know many of you are experiencing these changes and trying to make sense of it. I believe the greatest shift of all is the shift to living from the heart. We are so used to letting our mind run our lives. Guess that hasn't worked so well. The best way for all of us to sustain life on this planet is to work together with love. My understanding of love is that it sees the perfection in all things...that inner perfection. The perfection is what we love and embrace in each other.
Living from the heart frees us from all the conditioning our mind has been put through during a lifetime. As children we are conditioned by our parents and family. As we grow up, formal education, religion, politics, big business health care...they all condition us to think a certain way. We loose pieces of ourselves to all this conditioning. By living in the moment and living from the heart, we can begin to reclaim who we really are...and bring out that inner perfection.
Light and Love,
Bonnie